All These Feelings

In this night that highlights dawn,
I stay dormant for I have feared this moment,
This is the time someone must silence your voice.
Vengeful and fierce are the thoughts that I bear with me.
The last strain of hope is gone.
I am calculating the risk and I am ready for desperate measures now.

Thrown into the lion pit; a fight of life.
I failed you all and I am too afraid
but a situation like this requires concessions.
I will not allow someone like you to destroy what we have.
I do not want to be like you but I have no choice; you leave me no choice.
In my eyes, clashing views on everything I am.

I take a closer look to see there are only illusions.
Everything that defined me all I believed has been withdrawn.
Reality tears apart itself, now tell me that this is not a matter of life and death.

This is a matter of life and death.

This is my consciousness, my ego, my self-sabotage.
This is indispensable.
This is what my feelings sound like.

I am more afraid of the ones that obey than of the disease itself.
See the signs of this emergence and raise the awareness,
it's time to be resistant.
I find so many reasons to why you should be extinct,
so many reasons yet no one will win,
so I will fight this fight for one last night.

Fuse together with my painful strife to be under the knife.
As I flex the joints of this hand you might find that you don't stand a chance.
Prepare for impact.