Hushing

it's such a miracle
the silence in my head
let me raise my bottle
to my lips, to my brain
take away the riffle
i've bought it just in case
i've been unlovable
to family and friends
to you
to me
from hope
to death
or at least pain

it's been a miracle
the silence in my head
it's been so magical
no riot in my brain
bring me back the riffle
i've bought it for this case
i'm so unlovable
to family and friends
to you
to me
from hope
to death
or at least pain

like a noisy machine
an unhealthy routine
it reminds me i'm always down
like a tsarist regime
a shy and moody teen
it reminds me i'm always down
tell me i'm on the mend
and bring me back to healer
i know i'm on the mend