Butterly or a golden bee.
My smile's like razorblades:
When I smile
It cuts bloody deep.
My body's on the magazine,
My face on the TV,
My voice on the radio.
That's me in my dream.
When I open my eyes
I see I'm a piece of shit!
A worthless coward!
A vapid whore!
A moral-less refugee
Covered in sores!
A blithering sea cow
Lost in its dreams!
Nobody likes me, yeah!
Nobody likes me at all!
Nobody likes me, yeah!
Wet, blue world fills me up-
I find I'm deep inside.
Waves crash and I breathe water,
But I haven't died!
And beneath the waves,
I hide my head in darker water
And nobody sees.
I cut myself-
Hope to draw you in,
But even the sharks pass by;
Someone please explain.
All alone I'm growing colder.
Laughter like cancer over my shoulder.
Mirrors like hatchets to the world of my face.
I'm not a manatee!
I'm not a manatee!
Just leave me alone!
Just leave me alone!
And beneath the sea,
I give up and I descend
And I'm finally free!
And in the end...
Wet, blue world fills me up-
Fills me deep inside.
Waves crash and I breathe water,
But I haven't died!
Never!
With a furious poison in my heart,
Will I return from the darker waters?
I let the tide tear me apart!
Never!
With a furious poison in my veins,
Will I return from the darker waters?
I'll hold my breath and wait for change!
I die-
It's a suicide.
My body swallowed by a big blue violence
And into the endless tide.
Cold
And all alone,
I held my own
But now I give up!
